its such a simple concept. youre 5 years old and someone asks, "what do you want to be when you grow up?" the answer of course is whatever new action hero just came out or barbie, etc. then youre 14 years old, heading into high school.. full of hopes and dreams and wonders. success is the key to future, they say. and of course thats true, to a good future anyway. then youre 18 and youre walking across that stage and all your dreams from freshman year come flooding back and you wonder where you lost those dreams. or if they're just waiting, lying there dormant. maybe you havent lost them, maybe you did...
was it in the middle of a frustrating pre-calc class cram session, countless phone calls to a boyfriend when you should've been studying, or even at home.. where things were tough... ?
when did life just get so hard you stopped caring about the future, and tried only to make it through the day?
i've been thinking about my future SO much lately, i wonder what mine holds... will i ever get to college, and if/when i go will i have the strength and desire to do what it takes to do well? is there a two-story white house with a fence and a dog and my own family? will i be in a job i am happy at?
in all honesty, my future scares me. thats right, it scares the everlovin' crap outta me. truestory. but i've discovered i havent lost my dreams, i just lost sight. i have dreams, and i will make them happen!
so i am going to do something about it... i am making a list of things i want to accomplish to get me closer to my future. the future i want for myself!
get a stable well paying job to save for college- save for college
- GO TO COLLEGE! even if its just wake tech, im going!
- when i get there, work hard!! because i am capable of doing so!
- trust God, He knows what my future is and the desires of my heart. through Him all things are possible.
until i daydream again..
love,
shelby
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